"The time is always right to do what is right." - Martin Luther King Jr.
03.10.06 (11:11 am) [edit]{"We have to live today by what truth we can get today and be ready tomorrow to call it falsehood."-- William James To change is to be imperfect and to be imperfect is to be wrong --- at times! As an alcoholic, I have a problem with ego; always wanting to be right, hating to say, "I am sorry", not wishing to appear out of control. In sobriety I must wrestle with my ego on a daily basis. However, although I find it difficult to accept that I am imperfect, I know that I am! I know that I need to make amends. I know that I produce most of the pain in my life. Today's facts are stepping stones to tomorrow's falsehoods --- and I grow with this knowledge. Spirituality is growing in the knowledge that I do not have all the answers. Let me experience joy and growth in the dilemmas of life.} The above in brackets is from my daily recovery readings. I felt compelled to post it here because it was most assuredly how I was feeling this morning. The quote by William James go hand in hand with this one (also not mine, but unsure to whom it does belong) "The past and the future and great places to visit, but I wouldn't want to live there." I have to remember to live in the present, one day at a time, one moment at a time if necessary. I can not dwell on the past, only learn from it, and I can not fret about the future as I have no control over it. I only have today, and by the grace of God and A.A., today I am sober. Today I choose to be happy. I am Melis , an alcoholic, sober 48 days.
Day 45
03.06.06 (10:48 am) [edit]"The past and the future are nice places to visit, but I wouldn't want to live there." - Thomas Payne. Daily I must remind myself that I can not dwell on the past nor worry about the future. When I do these things I end up missing out on today. Today is all that I can honestly say that I have for certain. The future will come one day at a time if my Higher Power has it in store for me. I must give my alcoholic problems to him and I must never take them back into my own hands. I have already seen how I can handle that problem, now I must allow my Higher Power to handle it for me. It is only then that I will be able to begin to fully heal. - My name is Melis and I am an alcoholic. By the grace of my higher power, the love of my family, the support of A.A., and my caring sponsor I will not take a drink today.
